Wednesday, October 30, 2024

Rhyme Or Reason: More Of My Musings...



Here are more of my poems. Some of them were written quite awhile back, but I only share some of the things I write and that's only when I feel like I can do so.




Never

                                   I've never had my happy ending.                                  
I've never had my dream-come-true.
I've never known the way it feels,
When Mr. Right says, "I love you."
My life has not gone like a movie,
Though it's been a tragedy.
There's no one special in my life,
Saying that they care for me.
The hourglass's sand flows quickly,
Reminding me each passing day,
Though my heart's on fire with passion,
Love has never found a way.
I've forgotten how a kiss feels.
I can't imagine an embrace,
Or someone's eyes aglow with love,
As they look into my face.
Romantic movies tease my longing,
All their plotlines end in love.
It's not my heart that men want from me.
My love must not be good enough.




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'Available, except my heart'.
You should know that from the start.
Someone stole my heart from me,
But it simply cannot be,
That I will end up in their arms,
Despite the pull of all their charms.
But I can have some fun with you,
If that is what you'd like to do.
I need to laugh, and play, and dance.
Maybe finally find romance.
There may be comfort to be had,
That will make me feel less sad.
But I must tell you, to be fair,
That my heart will not be there.




Be Still My Heart

Be still my heart!
Go back to sleep.
You feel a love
You cannot keep.
You love someone
Not meant for you,
And there is nothing
You can do.
You must let go.
You must move on.
You must resist,
Until it's gone.
They love someone 
That is God's will,
And so, my heart,
You must be still.




[NOTE: The other day I was smiling as I heard yet another country song about a good ol' boy in a pickup truck with his dog. Amazed that so many country music songwriters have found the words to describe this fairly limited subject matter, I decided to challenge myself to write my own version. I hope mine doesn't sound too much like someone else's though, as I don't know a huge number of country songs, considering that I only fell in love with the genre a couple of years ago or so. I assure you that so far I've never heard my words below from anyone else.]

 My Ode To Country Music

He pulled up in a pickup truck,
And sure enough, he picked me up.
He flashed a smile that made me melt.
I felt things I've never felt.
I was jealous of his pup.
His petting her got my pulse up.
The way his fingers stroked her fur,
 Made me want to switch with her.
He was hot, ain't no denyin'.
He turned me on, and I ain't lyin'.
I asked him in, but he said no,
Telling me he had to go.
The last I saw of him that day,
Was taillights as he drove away.
He stayed on the straight and narrow,
but I was struck by Cupid's arrow.
His dog's a very lucky bitch,
But he refused to scratch my itch.
I wish that good ol' boy had been
In the mood to share some sin.




A Lie 

If you're moving your mouth,
You're telling a lie,
And you never explain,
When I ask you why.
I don't think you'd like me
to do that to you,
But you seem to think 
It's alright that you do.
Just don't act insulted 
I doubt what you say.
When you choose to tell lies,
There's a price to be paid.
I wish I could trust you,
Because I do care.
But you made that hard,
When you went there.
You made the choice,
To treat me this way.
So this is on you,
At the end of the day.
So don't climb up on
Your high and mighty,
In front of me,
And the Almighty.




Unanswered Prayers

  There must be something I can say,
To have You take this pain away,
From my very broken heart,
Because it's tearing me apart.
Human love can feel like Hell,
When it isn't going well.
One-sided love feels like a curse.
I don't think it could be worse.
A love with nowhere it can go.
The circumstance has dammed the flow.
Was I made to love a man?
It doesn't seem to be Your Plan.
What am I supposed to do?
All the answers lie with You.
I pray but still You do not say
If You'll take this pain away.
Tell me clearly what to do.
I've brought my broken heart to You.


Wednesday, October 23, 2024

To My Readers . . .

Today was my target date to publish this month's blog post online, but I have been VERY busy this week, trying to deal with several pressing matters that need my attention, sooner than later, and there's only so many hours in a day.

One of the current challenges is that my heart is acting up a lot right now, which is potentially dangerous, mostly because it is also doing a lot of atrial fibrillation, and therefore must be dealt with right away. A normal blood pressure is considered to be around 120/80, and a normal pulse around 60 - 100 beats per minute.

Yesterday I was very pale and felt very weak-- almost flu-like; like I could easily faint. I check my blood pressure at home, and these were my readings yesterday, along with the monitor screen also displaying the symbol for heart arrhythmia with each reading:

82/44

94/56 with 105 pulse

105/63 with 103 pulse

89/48

111/66

I still feel rather shaky, after yesterday-- not fully recovered from that struggle my heart was going through, and my blood pressure readings are only marginally better today, with the monitor screen continuing to show the symbol for heart arrhythmia, which is a serious condition that can lead to heart attack, stroke, or even death.

I don't have these health issues crop up every day, thankfully, and I am really sad that my arrhythmia is back because it disappeared several months ago and had not troubled me for a while.

Because of trying to recover more fully, and hopefully end the heart fibrillations, as well as accomplish more things on my 'To Do List' that need doing ASAP, I have decided to aim for publishing this month's blog post next Wednesday instead, at the latest, if not sooner.

If a post doesn't occur, at some point, when I haven't provided you with any explanation or information about that, it may mean that a health issue of some kind, or something else, has rendered me unable to write my blog post(s) anymore; at least for a while.

I am 68 now, so every day I live I must hold the precious privilege of life on earth with an open hand.

Thank you for your understanding.

I appreciate your readership throughout these 6 years that I have written this blog, which has readers in 70 countries around the world now. That always amazes me!

I would also appreciate any and all prayers that you offer on my behalf.

Thank you so much!

Deb